practice makes purpose
I ordered a sewing machine and it came today. It'll have to wait until my next days off, but I look forward to using it. I love sewing, but have always hand sewn and wanted to learn how to use a machine for its speed and efficiency. Quality too. I took up sashiko some years ago, and hope to do more of that this year, too.
Ive read a lot of good blogs here thus far, a lot of really really really good blogs.
I'm currently reading through Nikhil.bearblog -- I admire people who can so concisely express such meaningful thoughts. I never make time to sit down and take notes from things like this. It goes into the pile of "want to, but never does". I want to reduce that pile. I have to reduce that pile. I feel like my brain is running in ruts trying to make sense of the idleness I experience daily. Tiredness, desperation, dissatisfaction and a million other things come knocking. But I really can't let that stop me anymore.
I took out my bead looming supplies today after not doing so in years, and set to work on a small devotional pattern for La Santa Muerte that I created for her. I ad-libbed a few things and thus it could be better, but I hope to make more of them, and grow more efficient with the loom again.
The title of this entry comes from a thought that I had which is -- is it truly, really possible to call something an interest, or something you "do" if you dont... Do it? If you love something, but never practice it. Never give it time. Never ever do it. Is it something you really love?..
There's something to be said for time, busy schedules, etc. But at least for my personal rules of self, I cant let that be an excuse.
I have to do something, make something, or else its difficult for me to (be) something in turn.