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conundrum

I find it difficult to avoid a particular event when dealing with others who share media that Im already aware of.

That is to say-- the things I really love.. I really love. It is never a glancing blow with my interests. There's things I like passively, just a normal amount. And then theres the other stuff. Be they specific things, or categories of things. I dont find politics in my interests, they dont inform my moral standing. They just intrance me, make me happy, undo the knots in my brain.

It happens often that I'm told about something someone likes, its new to them (games mostly) but I already know it, and like it a lot. Unusual games are a big interest, theyre also unfortunately the latest popular youtube video essay fodder. I'm not really interested in knowing a secret thing-- This is not a big deal to me. To me, one of the best things in the world is if you tell me you know about the random unpopular PlayStation game I mentioned off hand. This is not a cool points thing, I get nothing out of flaunting things people have not heard of-- I want to talk to you about them. I want to hear your thoughts and feelings and impressions even if you hated it.

Someone disliking something doesn't change anything about my enjoyment. I just want to know what you thought, felt, experienced.

Going backwards -- sometimes mentioning ah! Yes! That thing! I know that thing, tell me more, you have my full attention.. Makes people deflate. I make a point not to start talking about it. The stage is yours. On the other hand, is this is a "me" issue? This is not a "me" issue, I realize that. There's something to be said for what people get from being the one to know about the obscure thing as opposed to just sharing a genuine interest.

I had more to say about this, but it's gone from me now.